Grounded..

I come here, heart in hand, chest wide open. I've had it locked up for too long. While I will not offer it to just anyone, I won't be offering it to noone either. My love has left me here, wondering what will happen next, wondering where my life's path will lead me next. I have a lot of love to offer, and I hope that the next one that I offer it to, can appreciate it for what it is. Hopefully, this time will be the last time I need to do this. I sincerely do not want to have to feel like this again. My life must change, and my feelings must be understood, maybe not by or for the one that I thought was the one, and hopefully by someone better for me. Normally, I can see things coming. Normally, I can change the course before the ship hits the shore. This was not the case this time, and I must repair and start a new voyage, perhaps this time I will find something (someone) I can truly enjoy the presence of without my demons. I realize that the demons inside never go away fully, but perhaps my demons will play nicely with her demons this time around. Did I mention that I hate feeling this way?